MY OVERALL LEARNING

I was very nervous when I came back to college after many absent  years. It took me some time to adapt. Actually I am still adapting. As the english class evolved I stress myself a lot. I didn't feel prepared for this class. I asked myself why did I took this class? Every time I had to do a writing assignment, i find it very hard to accomplish.
I start making a list to narrow down my obstacles and my problems to see where is it that I needed help.
I notice many factors interfiering with my academic time. Money, time and knowledge.  I need to make money to survive every month and I don't have enough time to do all things I need to. My lack of knowledge makes it very hard for me to do my homework.  It might sound like excuses but they're not. It is true that I came back to colleague after many absent years. But back when I was in college I was not doing my homework. I was attending college but I was there just for the social networking. I never wrote a paper or stayed awake all night doing homework. But I threw the best parties all the time.
I'm in a point in my life where I want to finish college. Im struggling a lot now because I don't know how to manage my time in a more efficient way. I don't know how to do homework. Specially english homework. I find in very hard to express my ideas in writting. After writing a paper, seems to me like the best paper there is. Then I read it and read it. Soon I thought is a worthless piece of paper. Its was a big mess. There was no order whatsoever. No intro, no body, no conclusion. Just a bunch of unorganized ideas in a piece of paper. Very hard to read and very hard to follow.  My frustration grew. I began to look for help in the TLC. But still, some times the lack of time got in my way.
After talking with other classmates I notice how it is so simple for them to write. One time I stayed up all night writing a paper and the next day in class a classmate told me: "What? I just did it this morning" And that paper look so much better than mine. Simple, organized and to the point. I felt worst than ever. The only time I pulled all nighters on a thursday was partying and having fun. Now I was spending my first night awake doing a paper that at the end still was not what the teacher asked for.
I see myself now and Im still struggling in writing. But I am getting better now. It might take me longer than others but I'll eventually get there. For now I am enjoying the process. I will not stop here. I will keep moving forward too improve my writing academic skills. I just start reading this book called Stop Procrastination. I'm sure I will get something good and useful out of it.
Now I'm glad I took this class. The books have been very interesting and relate to my everyday life. Brought back great memories and gave me some good advices.